For those who are still battling IF and may be having a bad day I won't beat around the bush. My one follicle was the lucky one and this week I got a BFP. I have had a couple of labs drawn since then and everything has come back with strong numbers growing right as they should.
Long version (for those who are interested in all the details):
Wednesday was my scheduled test day. In the days leading up to it I had mixed feelings but mostly I didn't want to take the test. The last couple cycles, 2 days after testing Aunt Flow would come to town. I figured if I just waited a few more days I wouldn't have to go through the disappointment of a negative test. Unfortunately that plan was thwarted by Dr. Love's good memory. After getting ready for work, he woke me up from my sleep.
Dr. Love: "Isn't today test day?"
Me: "Yeah, but I think I'm going to skip it."
Dr. Love: "Uh, so when would you test instead?"
Me: "Maybe tomorrow or Friday."
Dr. Love: "Well tomorrow I'm on call, so I don't think that would be a good idea, and Friday's 2 days away."
Me: " <sigh> You want me to test today, don't you?"
I pulled myself out of bed and into the bathroom. For the first few seconds I didn't want to look at the test. I didn't want to see that stark white staring up at me. Moments later I knew I had to look at it. I was shocked to see not 1 but 2 lines developing. I couldn't believe what I was seeing and just sat there paralyzed for a moment. When I finally got my wits about me I pulled out the box of digital tests I bought ages ago for just such an occasion. While the instructions say to wait 3 minutes, "Pregnant" popped up in less than a minute. Again I was in shock. I took a few minutes to gather my composure and went back in the bedroom to show Dr. Love.
Me: "Well that's unexpected," as I handed him the sticks.
Dr. Love: "You took two?" then he looked at them..."Wait, really?" Then he started counting days. "We're 16 days past trigger, and it's typically out of your system after 10 days....that's all you honey?"
We hugged and I was still numb, shocked; I couldn't believe this was happening. Even though we were on a medicated cycle, since nothing was different about the medications and my response for our 4th time, I didn't expect much and thought we'd be moving onto a more aggressive plan next cycle.
I called the RE to notify them of my positive and set up days for beta HCG draws.
Beta 1 at 14 days past ovulation: 447
Beta 2 at 16 days past ovulation: 953
The numbers suggest that this is a strong pregnancy that should be sustainable. Obviously I realize that's not a guarantee and a lot of stuff could still happen thus I remain cautiously excited and a bit scared too. We are very grateful and thrilled to be here and pray that everything goes smoothly. I'd like to say that the blood test, the bloating, the swollen breasts, and the exhaustion (I've fallen asleep on the couch like 3 times in the last week) have me convinced but it still seems so unreal.
Our first ultra sound is on August 4th and I hope seeing the little bean on the screen will help it become more real. While I'm waiting for a more certain due date from my doctor but right now it looks like our lucky charm should be arriving in the middle of March.
I appreciate the support and encouragement that I have received from blogland during these difficult months and never giving up on me even when I was less than confident. I hope that you will all stick around as this blog evolves with the pregnancy, but I understand that for some that might not be possible. I know that in IF, every BFP that isn't yours stings to some degree. I wish I could take that pain away and hope that many more BFPs are coming in the near future.