Sunday, July 17, 2011

Surprise, surprise

Short version:
For those who are still battling IF and may be having a bad day I won't beat around the bush.  My one follicle was the lucky one and this week I got a BFP.  I have had a couple of labs drawn since then and everything has come back with strong numbers growing right as they should.

Long version (for those who are interested in all the details):
Wednesday was my scheduled test day.  In the days leading up to it I had mixed feelings but mostly I didn't want to take the test.  The last couple cycles, 2 days after testing Aunt Flow would come to town.  I figured if I just waited a few more days I wouldn't have to go through the disappointment of a negative test.  Unfortunately that plan was thwarted by Dr. Love's good memory.  After getting ready for work, he woke me up from my sleep.

Dr. Love: "Isn't today test day?"

Me: "Yeah, but I think I'm going to skip it."

Dr. Love: "Uh, so when would you test instead?"

Me: "Maybe tomorrow or Friday."

Dr. Love: "Well tomorrow I'm on call, so I don't think that would be a good idea, and Friday's 2 days away."

Me: " <sigh> You want me to test today, don't you?"

I pulled myself out of bed and into the bathroom.  For the first few seconds I didn't want to look at the test.  I didn't want to see that stark white staring up at me.  Moments later I knew I had to look at it.  I was shocked to see not 1 but 2 lines developing.  I couldn't believe what I was seeing and just sat there paralyzed for a moment.  When I finally got my wits about me I pulled out the box of digital tests I bought ages ago for just such an occasion.  While the instructions say to wait 3 minutes, "Pregnant" popped up in less than a minute.  Again I was in shock.  I took a few minutes to gather my composure and went back in the bedroom to show Dr. Love.

Me: "Well that's unexpected," as I handed him the sticks.

Dr. Love: "You took two?" then he looked at them..."Wait, really?"  Then he started counting days.  "We're 16 days past trigger, and it's typically out of your system after 10 days....that's all you honey?"

We hugged and I was still numb, shocked; I couldn't believe this was happening.  Even though we were on a medicated cycle, since nothing was different about the medications and my response for our 4th time, I didn't expect much and thought we'd be moving onto a more aggressive plan next cycle.

I called the RE to notify them of my positive and set up days for beta HCG draws.

Beta 1 at 14 days past ovulation: 447

Beta 2  at 16 days past ovulation: 953

Progesterone: 21.2

The numbers suggest that this is a strong pregnancy that should be sustainable.  Obviously I realize that's not a guarantee and a lot of stuff could still happen thus I remain cautiously excited and a bit scared too.  We are very grateful and thrilled to be here and pray that everything goes smoothly.  I'd like to say that the blood test, the bloating, the swollen breasts, and the exhaustion (I've fallen asleep on the couch like 3 times in the last week) have me convinced but it still seems so unreal. 

Our first ultra sound is on August 4th and I hope seeing the little bean on the screen will help it become more real.  While I'm waiting for a more certain due date from my doctor but right now it looks like our lucky charm should be arriving in the middle of March. 

I appreciate the support and encouragement that I have received from blogland during these difficult months and never giving up on me even when I was less than confident.  I hope that you will all stick around as this blog evolves with the pregnancy, but I understand that for some that might not be possible.  I know that in IF, every BFP that isn't yours stings to some degree.  I wish I could take that pain away and hope that many more BFPs are coming in the near future.


  1. WOW!!!! Congratulations!!!!!! Sending up all my thoughts and prayers. HUGS

  2. I am literally tearing up!!!!!! I am beyond happy for the both of you! I will think of you during the coming weeks and send my prayers your way.

  3. Congrats!!! That's awesome news!! I can't wait for more updates!!

  4. This is awesome! I am beyond happy for you and Dr. Love. I can't wait to follow you on this next journey.


  5. CONGRATULATIONS!!! I'M SO EXCITED FOR YOU!!! How amazing - I could not be happier for you!!! Take care and I'm looking forward to hearing how your journey continues! Here's to a very happy and healthy pregnancy, with your little one soon in your arms!!!

  6. Congratulations! Pregnancy is contagious :-)

  7. Thank you ladies.

    @Wife of a Resident: I wish pregnancy was contagious. I know a lot of ladies I would love to infect if I knew how. :)

  8. Congrats! I AM happy for you :) Can't wait to read more as it progresses!

  9. A thousand congratulations!!!

    Send those pregnant germs this way... I'm doing an IUI in the next few days!

  10. Congratulations!!! Can't wait to hear about your first ultrasound :) Those are some nice, strong beta numbers!

  11. I've been a "lurker" on the blog and I just wanted to say CONGRATULATIONS!!!!!!
    Wishing you a happy & healthy pregnancy!!

  12. huge congrats!! very exciting!! and thanks for the kind comment too :) cheering for you as you wait for your first hopefully stellar u/s!

  13. I had a big smile in my face while I read your post. I felt the same way when I saw my positive test. I didn't know what to think I even felt nervous and with butterflies in my stomach!

    I'm so excites for you and happy for your strong and positive teat results! I can't wait to now be part of this wonderful part of your journey!

  14. Okay, seriously? I have goosebumps AND I'm crying happy tears for you. Congratulations!!!!!! I am so excited for your BFP, and will of course be following along as you go through pregnancy!!!! Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!


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